Raja Zarith Sofiah posts heartfelt tribute to her son Tunku Jalil
PETALING JAYA: Raja Zarith Sofiah Sultan Idris has penned a touching letter to her son Tunku Abdul Jalil Sultan Ibrahim who died of cancer on Saturday.
In the letter, the Permaisuri of Johor said that she had a thousand and one memories of the Tunku Laksamana Johor’s last days.
“I remember, once, you closed your eyes and tears flowed onto your cheeks, as you fought the pain, and I held your left hand and I wept, trying hard not to make any sounds.
“I thought you could not see me cry because your eyes were closed but you knew, and you put your right hand over mine and you patted it, as if you were saying, 'Don't cry, I am all right,' " she said in the letter that was uploaded on Facebook on Tuesday.
Raja Zarith said she remembered all the text messages Tunku Jalil sent her, including one where he said he had asked Allah to let him bear the burden of her worries.
She also said that Allah placed Tunku Jalil in the hospital so that his family would spend as much time with him as possible.
Raja Zarith said that when she looked at his grave, her heart ached.
“I watched your father and your brothers fill it up with earth while Boo and Inah stood near me. I looked at your brothers and counted three sons. Boo was beside me.
“There are five of you. Where was my fourth son? And then I realised it was you who was missing. I had forgotten you were beneath the mounds of earth.
“And I held up my hands and whispered 'From You we come, and to You we return. I return to You, O Allah, my son.' May you be with the righteous, my son,” she wrote.
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Permaisuri Johor, Raja Zarith Sofia Sultan Idris Shah merakamkan coretan buat anakandanya, Almarhum Tunku Laksamana Johor, Tunku Abdul Jalil Sultan Ibrahim yang meninggal dunia akibat kanser baru-baru ini.
Baginda mencoret warkah itu di Facebook miliknya :
Mama tahu, satu-satunya sebab Lil pergi ke hospital adalah kerana Lil menanggung kesakitan yang amat sangat. Lil sebenarnya hendak kekal tinggal di rumah. Lil telah terlalu kerap ke hospital.
Namun Allah SWT, Yang Maha Mengetahui, menempatkan Lil di sana agar kami, keluarga Lil, dapat meluangkan sebanyak masa bersama Lil.
Mama menyimpan seribu satu kenangan tentang Lil ketika Lil menghabiskan hari-hari terakhir Lil di dunia ini.
Mama terkenang satu ketika sewaktu Lil memejam mata dan air mata menitis di pipi Lil, semasa Lil cuba melawan kesakitan yang ditanggung. Mama memegang tangan kiri Lil dan menangis.
Mama mencuba sedaya upaya untuk menahan sedu sedan Mama dari kedengaran. Mama fikir, Lil tidak nampak Mama menangis kerana mata Lil pejam. Tapi Lil tahu.
Lil meletak tangan kanan Lil di atas tangan Mama dan menepuk-nepuk dengan perlahan, seolah-olah berkata: “Jangan menangis, Lil tidak apa-apa.”
Mama ingat semua mesej pesanan ringkas yang Lil hantar kepada Mama. Bila Mama mengatakan bahawa Mama telah berdoa untuk Lil, Lil membalas dengan mengatakan bahawa Lil juga telah berdoa dan memohon kepada Allah SWT biarlah Lil yang menanggung semua kebimbangan Mama.
Bila Mama melihat makam Lil, hati Mama dipenuhi keperitan. Mama masih terbayang detik ketika Babah, abang dan adik Lil memenuhkan kubur dengan tanah sementara Boo dan Inah berdiri di sisi Mama.
Mama memandang ke arah abang dan adik Lil, dan membilang hanya tiga anak lelaki. Boo di sisi Mama. Anak lelaki Mama lima orang. Di mana anak mama yang lagi seorang?
Kemudian Mama baru tersedar bahawa Lil yang tiada. Lil kini berada di bawah timbunan tanah itu.
Dan pada ketika itu, Mama menadah kedua tangan mama dan berbisik:
“Sesungguhnya dari-Mu kami datang, dan kepada-Mu jua kami kembali. Daku memulangkan kepadaMu, Ya Allah, anakku.”
Moga Lil ditempatkan bersama mereka yang soleh
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